by Nellie Gadson
Are you the secretarial type? Do you love typing, shorthand, filing? Have you found that since you were a child you just loved office machines and office buildings? Have you envisioned yourself working in those buildings? This could be your calling. You are called to do something even if you don’t know what it is, you do have a call on your life to be someone special. In my case, I know in my knower that I was meant to be a secretary.
To be a secretary takes much patience, and much hard work. It has been the most rewarding experience of my life. When I was a child in elementary school, we had a school secretary named Mrs. Hankins. I had never seen her before but I knew she was there.
Early one morning on my first recess I went outside to the only adventurous equipment on the playground which was the dreaded sliding board. I stood there in front of the sliding board looking up at this monster of a thing. I want you to imagine an almost 4 foot overweight child looking up at an almost 10 foot sliding board. I could not conceive of myself standing at the top of that sliding board, but so that I would not be ostracized by my friends or picked on for being afraid, I decided that I would take that sliding board on. It is hard for me to believe at the age now of 46 that peer pressure at such an early age was so strong that it could make me do something that I would not normally do? At that time, I was horribly afraid of heights. There was a line of kids what looked like as far as the eye could see and I wouldn’t dare break out of that line. They were pushing and shoving to get to that first ladder rung of the sliding board before the bell rang. I saw all of my friends in front of me unafraid with the biggest smile on their face that I had ever seen. Secretly, I was trembling with fear inside. I realize now the reason they were pushing me. I was frozen with fear. Every step I took towards that board made it bigger and taller than anything I had ever seen before. It actually looked as though it were growling at me and taunting me to COME ON UP HERE NELLIE, I AM GOING TO EAT YOU ALIVE.
Gritting my teeth, with a friend of mine behind me named Clementine, I stepped on the first rung and I climbed that ladder to get to the top of the sliding board one rung at a time. My head was spinning and my eyes became blurry. All I knew was that I was climbing that ladder and was so full of fear I didn’t even know what I was doing or how far up I was. Every rung that I stepped on took me further and further from the ground. The ground that gave me security and stability.
Looking back on the situation, it happens to all of us. We have that area in our lives (that dreaded ladder with rungs that goes up so high you can't see to the top) that we don’t want to climb but we do it anyway. It carries us further and further away from that security and stability of groundedness (if that is really a word), that once you have begun to climb, the circumstances that you left in the wake of all of your errors in the past prevent you from backing down the ladder or backing up and making right what you have wronged. If you back up, you are afraid that you will be ostracized or found out for what you really are, so you keep going until…until…until…YOU ARE AT THE TOP! Oh my goodness, don’t look down or you will tumble and fall from fear and your fear will be out in the open for everyone to see.
Do you want to know what happened? I got to the top. You won’t believe what was happening at the top of that slide. (Well this is the cliff hanger) If you would like to know what happened you will need to hang tight and read my next blog because it gets extremely hairy from this situation on. It truly catapults me into the profession that I am in right now.
This writing is completely true to the best of my knowledge. Please bear with me because I have never looked back on my life and even thought about this since the time it happened. I will be as truthful and honest as I can. It will help you find what God has planned for your life and how to reach your full potential in whatever you do. I trust that you will come back and find out what was happening at the top of the slide. I guess you say, there is only a few things that could happen to scare this girl more than she is right now but trust me, You just have to come back and find out what was happening at the top of that slide and how it paralleled me into my profession.
Are you the secretarial type? Do you love typing, shorthand, filing? Have you found that since you were a child you just loved office machines and office buildings? Have you envisioned yourself working in those buildings? This could be your calling. You are called to do something even if you don’t know what it is, you do have a call on your life to be someone special. In my case, I know in my knower that I was meant to be a secretary.
To be a secretary takes much patience, and much hard work. It has been the most rewarding experience of my life. When I was a child in elementary school, we had a school secretary named Mrs. Hankins. I had never seen her before but I knew she was there.
Early one morning on my first recess I went outside to the only adventurous equipment on the playground which was the dreaded sliding board. I stood there in front of the sliding board looking up at this monster of a thing. I want you to imagine an almost 4 foot overweight child looking up at an almost 10 foot sliding board. I could not conceive of myself standing at the top of that sliding board, but so that I would not be ostracized by my friends or picked on for being afraid, I decided that I would take that sliding board on. It is hard for me to believe at the age now of 46 that peer pressure at such an early age was so strong that it could make me do something that I would not normally do? At that time, I was horribly afraid of heights. There was a line of kids what looked like as far as the eye could see and I wouldn’t dare break out of that line. They were pushing and shoving to get to that first ladder rung of the sliding board before the bell rang. I saw all of my friends in front of me unafraid with the biggest smile on their face that I had ever seen. Secretly, I was trembling with fear inside. I realize now the reason they were pushing me. I was frozen with fear. Every step I took towards that board made it bigger and taller than anything I had ever seen before. It actually looked as though it were growling at me and taunting me to COME ON UP HERE NELLIE, I AM GOING TO EAT YOU ALIVE.
Gritting my teeth, with a friend of mine behind me named Clementine, I stepped on the first rung and I climbed that ladder to get to the top of the sliding board one rung at a time. My head was spinning and my eyes became blurry. All I knew was that I was climbing that ladder and was so full of fear I didn’t even know what I was doing or how far up I was. Every rung that I stepped on took me further and further from the ground. The ground that gave me security and stability.
Looking back on the situation, it happens to all of us. We have that area in our lives (that dreaded ladder with rungs that goes up so high you can't see to the top) that we don’t want to climb but we do it anyway. It carries us further and further away from that security and stability of groundedness (if that is really a word), that once you have begun to climb, the circumstances that you left in the wake of all of your errors in the past prevent you from backing down the ladder or backing up and making right what you have wronged. If you back up, you are afraid that you will be ostracized or found out for what you really are, so you keep going until…until…until…YOU ARE AT THE TOP! Oh my goodness, don’t look down or you will tumble and fall from fear and your fear will be out in the open for everyone to see.
Do you want to know what happened? I got to the top. You won’t believe what was happening at the top of that slide. (Well this is the cliff hanger) If you would like to know what happened you will need to hang tight and read my next blog because it gets extremely hairy from this situation on. It truly catapults me into the profession that I am in right now.
This writing is completely true to the best of my knowledge. Please bear with me because I have never looked back on my life and even thought about this since the time it happened. I will be as truthful and honest as I can. It will help you find what God has planned for your life and how to reach your full potential in whatever you do. I trust that you will come back and find out what was happening at the top of the slide. I guess you say, there is only a few things that could happen to scare this girl more than she is right now but trust me, You just have to come back and find out what was happening at the top of that slide and how it paralleled me into my profession.
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